Im pissing everyone off..including myself.. cuz im damn pissed with the world.. ok summary..
one month from my ord, i was arrowed to go for an exercise, together with many people. in the end, all the active pangseh except for me. after that, I had to go through 2 debriefs, and spend hours in front of the stupid com watching the stupid video back and forth and think of what went wrong...
and three weeks from my ord, im supposed to be clearing leave..but tmr which is a sunday, im on duty..
and i cant sleep cuz i have to prepare for the 3rd debrief, which is something that is really not within my personal ability to complete, and i dont have the option of saying no, and i dont have any help.
so day after tmr, which is monday, i have to go for imt in the morning, rush back in the afternoon and discuss the details for the stupid debrief, which again will mean any overtime and more sai gang.
and tues im on duty again. so means no going home again
and wed im conducting some training, which means i'll prob reach home arnd 11, just nice to get 6 hrs of sleep.
cuz thur morning i gotta reach camp by 7 to go for stupid range. and it will end past midnight which prob means i gotta stay in..
fri is basically a repitition of thur. but i pray i get to book out to at least spend the night at home. cuz....
sat, which is hari raya btw, im on duty again...
(btw, just in case u are wondering, these are not extra duties, but routine duties allocated to me.ya ord personnel..tell me abt it man..and according to directives im not even supposed to do any duty.)
all this shit, 3 weeks from my ord, when others are halfway thru clearing their leave..
pls tell me that life is fair and everything's gonna be alright.
im going crazy..